it’s been awhile since I actually typed something down so here it goes.
For two weeks straight, I have been in a really unpleasant place due to my family problems. It’s like no matter how hard I try to keep my spirit up, this is impossible to accomplish when it comes to my family.
For two weeks straight I have not been sleeping well. Waking up at 10-11 am and going to bed at 5 am. The sight of my dark circles will frighten you.
God Bless my friends, because they pick up the phone despite there being a two hour time difference (it sucks, trust me.) they make time to listen to me, crying about my troubles and even though some things have already been said, they manage to give me great advice that I will always treasure.
So far this week, I have been trying to keep a positive attitude and things are going ok. I have been falling asleep at 2 am, instead of 5 and that my friends is a great accomplishment. (Y’all know I love my sleep.)
Anyway, moving along….
I decided to take a long, hot, bath this evening. It’s been awhile (showers are all I do bc due to my nieces, I don’t really have time to pamper myself. S/O to parents.) and a cup of tea along with it sounded wonderful.
& guys, I believe I have experienced lucid dreaming, for the first time.
I was swimming in a lake, naked and a croc wasn’t so far from me. As I was swimming, I could hear Beach Fossils playing in the background. Next thing you know, I began to swim towards the crocs direction. The more I swam, the further the croc was.
A game of cat and mouse? Maybe?
I was rudely interrupted by Tame Impala (thanx, pandora.) & “woke up”
It was strange. I hope to experience it again real soon.
While I was in the bath, I sort of let go.
I felt my body was so tense and I massaged my legs, my arms, my back.
I held my breath underwater, listened to the beat of my heart.
I felt good.
I have been so harsh to myself about things I know I can’t control. I only get one body, one life and it’s up to me to make the best of it.
Health is so important guys, not only physically but mentally as well.
I keep telling myself, “Deal with one thing at a time.”
And that my friends is how I will end this.
I’m already yawning. :)